【琐言】流泪的自己 - [O]
一个人 这三个字从来都没有认真的思考过 今天被人说清之后 才发现 真的真的是
我不知道这意味着什么 失败 还是 渺小 抑或是无助
于是毫无遮掩的哭了 觉得自己没用 觉得自己还要拼命拼命拼命做下去
至少我放弃那些东西 扭头走过来 并且一路走到这里之后全然没有感到一丝后悔和苦闷
I have been doing this for a long time. Really long...really long...Even long enough for myself to recall the first moment that I got so excited to draw colorful figures on the paper, the first moment when I stood still there staring at a painting and forgot the time...
ALONE. These five letters never came into my mind before. Till today, I was told by others, and I finally found out that I was doing these all alone. It is the truth.
I do not know what this means. Helpless or what I have done is too little and tiny to be noticed. or it meant to end up as a failure.
So I cried. quietly but sorrowfully.
Just do not want to see more abandonment of dreams. Just do not want to see more compromise to the reality.
Just do not want to stop doing it. Doing what I really like, and tell people that that can be done. You have to have faith.
I will keep doing it. I have thrown away anything that I had before for a secure future by the moment I came here.
No matter what people say, I am too young, I am too simple, I am too credulous...
At least, since the first moment that I made my mind, I never never never have a slight sense of regrets and difficulties.
So I guess, I do really love it.
I have nothing in my hands by hope. I am looking for those who are as stubborn as me.